And Since I've Got A Hot Minute

... and was just thinking about something. Well at first I was thinking about the Micheal Jackson case, and here's the thing; If he really were just sleeping with kids cause he loves them, blah blah blah, then why aren't there any girls?

And the obvious reason is, he is fixated with young boys. He probably can relate to them well cause he didn't grow up beyond when he got famous (as a little boy).

That's my theory at this current moment, at least.

I still really love my job, and for the most part I really like the people. I heart working with my sis, we have so much fun. And the GM adores me. It's just fantastic.

Camp was great after the first day. I just had a hard time adjusting this go around... whatever, it was great in the long run. And I really enjoyed spending all that time with my darlings and friends.

Everything else is sorta blah, blah, blah... so yeah, that's the update for now cause I'm getting bored with this.

Gmail

I have something like 49 invites, so if ya want one... email me and you got one.

The Cleaning Problem

.... Seems to have almost worked itself out.

Well, at least on the getting ready for next week front. Not really a long term situation to be found yet, but in the meantime;

I have found a couple of great kids I know who want to make money and want to clean. So on friday I will have my bathroom, living room and kitchen done! All while I am getting a hair cut!!! Yay!

I'm also considering hiring someone to come in and spring clean for me, gut out all the crap that we don't want/need/use, organize what we still have and then do some of the cleaning that never even enters my mind (windows, dusting, etc).... If you were someone how much would you want to be paid for something like that?

I'm thinking it's going to be costly, and also a one time fee... But worth EVERY SINGLE DIME.

I'd much rather spend money and save my sanity. Haha.

Books I Want To Get

The Bad Beginning by Lemony Snicket - inspired from watching the movie, which I found suprisingly delightful.

Searching for the Sound: My Life with the Grateful Dead by Phil Lesh - the cover alone was enough to get me interested not to mention it's about The Dead!!!!

Kiss Me Like A Stranger: My Search for Love & Art by Gene Wilder - To this day I can watch Willy Wonka and get something new, or Young Frankenstein and catch a quick nip that I'd missed. I find him to be one of the best comedic minds of all time. So I'm already interested without even knowing that he gives tons of details about Richard Pryor, and his life with Gilda Radner.

I can not wait to go and grab these along with a book all about paper airplanes and one on magic tricks this weekend to read at camp!

Don't Listen To That Women Behind The Curtain

Cause she is gonna tell you that mint mocha chip fraps are good from Starbucks...

Just kidding D. But really, I don't think I've ever not liked something from Starbucks and yet I took my first [and last] taste of something I can only describe to you as hideous. Horrible. Gross. Ewww.

I actually like mint chocolate chip ice cream. Maybe I just need to be in the right mood for it, or the planets need to be in alignment with Mars on the solar eclipse of a leap year for me to like this drink. Who knows.

All I can tell you is that when D calls me to tell about our new summer drink, I will yell and scream LA LA LA LA from now on. Hehe.

Catch Up

Let's see... This is an excuse, as wellas not an excuse. I haven't had time to do anything lately. And by anything, I mean just that. Anything.

The past 3 weeks I've been averaging about 32 - 35 hrs per wk at work, parenting full time during daylight hours and my days off. And well to be quite honest between just those two everything else has fallen to the dogs.

That is until the past 2 days. Monday went to RJ for about a hot minute, but no one I wanted to see was there so we didn't really stay for long. Came home and cleaned up the kitchen and got some help in the living room.

Of course I'm telling myself all this right now so as not to get completely overwhelmed by what still needs to be done...

See, I basically work wednesday thru sunday and in that same amount of time I have to pack 5 days worth of life for 4 people, clean the entire house down (in which I hope to get rid of some of the crap that is plaguing the house), make sure my boss gave me the right days off [!!!!], get food for next week and then pack up the car with all the going away stuff. Oh and work all in that time frame too. LOL.

However once all that is done I will have off 5 whole entire days and I'll be spending them with my kids. Do you know how excited I am right now about that? I'm also super excited to spend some good times with friends I haven't really gotten to see at all lately.

I'm glad I changed my mind about going. Letting one tiny little person keep me from this nice vacation is so stupid and I'm glad I got rational again. :)

Anyway, it's been a year. And wow, what a year. Hard times, and plenty of good/great times. But I'm also starting to consider that romantic relationships are about as pointless as bellybuttons.

Ok, gotta run.

I Am Alive....

Well at least I've got a theory of being aliveness. Or maybe it's a theory of a theory? Whatever.

I'm missing so much right now, I feel like it's going to take 2 weeks just to catch up. This past week I worked almost everyday. And I'm basically doing the same again this week. Only days off are monday & tuesday - and well the laundry has piled up so badly that I was actually asked if I could go to the store just to get clean socks. [ruh ro]

I am thinking that I would like 2 things right now, 1. a roomate and 2. a housekeeper.

And I only want a really cool roomate who has their own life and will hardly be around to bother me, so really I just want a housekeeper. LOL.

Anyway lots of things popping into my head, will post l8r when sleep isn't so wanted needed.

Urbanite

Did you know there is an Urban Dictionary????

Yes, put in anything and find out what it means;

1. Word

1) well said
2)said in a agreement
3) can be used as a greeting, hey whats up

1..and 2...Yo u goin to that rocks tanite....word
3) word up

It's a lucky thing I ran across that because I could have been very mistaken in thinking these little markings on my computer that are spelled out with various letters were words.... But hey, that's just me.

Growl

I'm done with boys...

Ok, I'm really not but I'm giving up on the idea of wanting someone. Or finding someone.

Errr, what I mean to say is that I'm not giving up on love. Nor the possibility. No, instead I am just taking a break from it all and enjoying me time.Or at least just give myself enough time to rethink some things and let go of some others.

No Excuses

Because I don't have any pics up yet. You're just going to have to wait until it stops hurting [!!!!!!!!!] and is healed.

Moving To Iceland?

Today I was reading some very cool/interesting pop culture type stuff about Iceland. They are definitely liberal in their thinking. And in some ways I find it all very interesting, and adore some of the thinking going on there.

For example single parents have no stigma attached to them in any way. That is something that I find to be perfect. Being single does not mean love is lacking, nor does it mean that a person's life is less than because they don't have some stupid piece of paper. And being a single parent does not mean that either.

But what I also found very refreshing was their theories about sex, and the idea that it's not something horrible people shouldn't do. They don't think of young people (the age was 15 to be specific) as being promiscous if they are having sex, regardless of being a male or female. Sex is just one of the things a fair number of the people living there do.

The last thing I really thought was fantastic was that people come together to raise families without having the premise of marriage. Sometimes people choose to be together just for the family, and some of the people come together to have blended families. It's very cool!!

Ok, ok I admit I don't think I could stand a day where it's light outside for 2 hours or being so mindnumbingly cold that my limbs will fall off but I did find Iceland to be a fairly cool place [to visit].

Tramp Stamp

What's that you ask? Well according to some (people whom we won't mention. haha) it's the tattoo women sometimes get right above their butts. On the small of the back....

I have no idea really why it might be called a tramp stamp, but that doesn't matter anyway.

What does matter is that right now my back is sore. It's certainly less red than yesterday and no longer screaming at me. But still all the same, sore. And why is my back sore you ask?

Well...

I got a tramp stamp, basically. On the small of my back I got a lotus with tribal symbols around it. (pictures to follow as soon as camera batteries are charged). It's sexy, if you ask me. Not to mention the meaning of it.

See the lotus is a buddhist symbol. They have several meanings, certain colors are taken to mean other things. For example a red lotus is a symbol of passion, love, etc etc. while a blue lotus is a symbol of wisdom and knowledge. (this site has a little more info if you are curious)

Anyway, so the lotus basically is a flower that starts off in dirty, muddy water - closed up but each day becomes more beautiful until it finally blossoms. To me that symbol spoke to me in such a strong way. Each day I feel I grow, and as each day grows life just seems to blossom. Living a good life is like being a lotus. So that's why I got the lotus as my tramp stamp.

I heart it tremendously.

It's Official

I am now and forever known as Bob.

Music, What Soothes Your Inner Savage?

Music soothes the savage beasts. Or at least speaks to them enough to make one bob their head about and have some good times.

I heart music. I can listen to music for hours upon hours, and not even notice. I love being in music stores, poking around trying to find that next greatest CD that will no doubt sit in my CD player playing for at least 2 weeks non-stop. Of course I am so picky when it comes to entire CDs that this doesn't happen, often.

My latest (and truthfully speaking one of the greatest) was The Wall by the studly Pink Floyd. I already have Dark Side of the Moon and just finally bit the bullet and got The Wall.

The only I am finding today is that Pink Floyd is one of those bands that only works when it works. If you can catch me...

So now I am in search of more music to tame my inner savage, and looking to you good people to make my playlist just that much longer! Any suggestions for specific songs, great albums or all around kick ass groups welcome [and wanted, so you better give them cause I know where you all live. Well maybe not Emma but I know where the rest of you live.]

The Pine

So I'm watching this show. It's one of those shows people sometimes watch but don't admit cause it's just far too embarrassing.

Anyway, watching the show - the start of the 6th season starts with the people all coming back from their summer fun, and two of the main characters trying to start back up a relationship.

So during the summer each seemed to have a non-commital relationship but they come back together, have sex and then the girl completely flips out. Basically she just loses her mind because the guy had been with another girl.

The chick had someone else too, why is it ok for her to have a fling and not him?

And basically the whole thing got me thinking about how we (in the general sense of course) want to be pined after. Why do people want their other halves/spouses/friends to wait around and hope for them while they get to move on and change? What causes those jealous feelings to pop up when that fantasy is shattered?

The only thing that I can even remotely come up with is....Fantasy. It's not about the actual person, or the relationship. It's about an idea of what we think the relationship should be.

Like if Jamie goes out for a girls night, her idea might be that Bob is just sitting around watching The Notebook sobbing in his beers waiting for her to get home. She might take that idea with her all night and come home early just to take care of her man.

However Jamie's idea really might have nothing to do with reality. Maybe Bob is overjoyed his girl is getting a life of her own and now he can have all his mates over, show off the big screen and watch the Orioles trample the Yankees.

I think being pined after probably is great for the ego. To be wanted and needed is a feeling only to be described as powerful. I think it's one of the things that keeps humans growing, changing, getting better all the time. (the being wanted & needed, not the being pined after part. Haha)

Ok, anyway I'm still thinking about what else it could mean...to want to be pined over...Maybe I'll come back to this later

Blarging Weather

...did not hold out. No instead it decided to rain, and continue with gray skies and rain thru the whole darn weekend. Heh...

No camping [!!]

Names

They can be kinda tricky.

Well, ok not really at all. See, here's the thing. About 4 years ago (maybe 3, who knows) I wanted to change my name. For various reasons, none of which are even worth bothering to mention but still wanted to change the name...

So, I did. For the most part. Some people still kept with the old name, family especially. And new people met by the new chosen name.

Now here's the problem, being both. And now even wanting to just chuck the new name and just be who I am but still being who I am to people who know me with the new name. If any of that makes any sense at all. Haha.

Basically I just want to make things as simple as possible or ummm, some other lame reason I want to just be me.

[Yeah, none of this makes sense. Don't be surprised if you end up with a headache. Take 2 tylenol and call me in the morning.]

Camping

Haven't gone. Kicking myself for it too....

See I really want to go. And a large part of me really wants to go all by lonesome. Not a soul in sight sort of deal. But there is also a part of me that wants some sort of company, of which has left me procrastinating on the whole going camping thing.

So today exec decision, I'm going camping friday - as long as this wonderful, georgeous, beautiful, amazing weather holds out! It won't be much of a trip or anything just one night cause I have to work saturday night anyway. But I am so ready for a get away!

The Stick Has Been Passed...

Dawn has passed her torch on and well she actually blogged which is fairly exciting in and of itself, so here goes;

You're stuck inside Fahrenheit 451, which book do you want to be?

I know this is going to sound a bit silly but right now any of the Harry Potter books!

Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character?

Absolutely

The last book you bought is:

Minnowknits Knitting book of which the actual title is completely escaping me.

The last book you read:

The Notebook

What are you currently reading?

Re-reading The Red Tent

Five books you would take to a deserted island:

I'll copy Dawn, Gil, and Emma, and start with Extreme Survival Almanac: Everything You Need to Know to Live Through a Shipwreck, Plane Crash, or Any Outdoor Crisis Imaginable by Reid Kincaid.

Stitch N' Bitch

Six By Suess

Green Eggs & Ham, as it's not in Six By Suess and Who does not like Green Eggs and Ham??

Helter Skelter for no other reason than for years it's been a book I read and read again over and over. And over.

Who are you going to pass this stick to (3 persons)? And Why?

Uhhh...Diane? Hamster? Mike? Anyone else with a blog who might have absolutely nothing else to do....